I’ve been having regrets about a decision that was leading to lots of lost sleep — that annoying frustrating monkey brains of stewing and trying to figure things out that really gets going as soon as I turn out the light. (So I don’t get enough sleep, which leads to a more poorly functioning brain, then even more monkey brain and stress! AARGH)
In this kind of situation, I normally pull more and more into myself, and wait until I have really worked things out in my head before I even mention it to anyone. And as I feel rather foolish, I have very little desire to have anyone else see how foolish I was! However, I have talked about this with several people (who’ve been supportive) and it is interesting how that has reduced the worst of the night time screaming brain. It so easy to believe that I am protecting myself by isolating, when really the opposite is true!